Happiness

Is what my life is. She's been my best friend since I was 16 years old. We've always been there for eachother through thick and thin. She is amazing. She makes me so happy :] Our story is kinda crazy haha. But in the end she will always be my best friend and now I am more than happy to say she's my girlfriend...:]

Word

The times are changin and things are getting better. that is all. : D haha.

Fun time

Today started out craptacular but ended bueno. Haven't really been in a good mood for a while now. But today was better i hung out at Bart and Lori's, which is always fun haha. Lori made us spaghetti and cake for Mongos birthday. It was gooooooooood. Then we made fun of people on the news haha it was so funny. "HEY!!" hahaha.

Ohhh and this is for Bart.."It'll eject when it's done."

blah blah blah

So it's about 2 weeks until I turn 21. Yippee...not. I have a feeling it's going to suck. My parents are leaving out of town on my birthday ha so I'll be alone. how fun. k bye.

All it takes..

So this week has been a little crazy. Revival is going on at the church and it's just mind blowing the things we're learning. Since sunday morning every service gets a little more intense haha.

Sometimes all it takes is a little push to get you on the right path. Tonight I saw people that have been hurting for many different reasons healed. I saw Matt and Amanda healed tonight that was amazing to me. They may not know it but I look up to Matt so much. He's helped me understand a lot of things. I'm happy to see these things happening for people it's amazing.

God is moving in our church and the rest of the world big time. It's amazing to see everything that's happened. Out of all the darkness that some people are having a light will come. We just gotta hold on to what we have and have faith in Him and not be afraid to give everything we have.

I'm looking forward to tomorrow night to see what's in store for us. I have a very good feeling I will not be disappointed. : D

So the other night i was looking at my grandpas bible and i opened it to where he had it marked. He had Hebrews 12:5-11 highlighted.

It says: "My son, do not make light of the Lord's discipline, and do not lose heart when he rebukes you, because the Lord disciplines those he loves, and he punishes everyone he accepts as a son.'' Endure hardship as discipline; God is treating you as sons. For what son is not disciplined by his father? If you are not disciplined, then you are illegitimate children and not true sons. Moreover, we have all had human fathers who disciplined us and we respected them for it. How much more should we submit to the Father of our spirits and live! Our fathers disciplined us for a little while as they thought best; but God disciplines us for our good, that we may share in his holiness. No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it.

Just thought I'd share that.

Things change

Lately I've come to realize that I really don't miss the old me. I'm actually loving everything that's happening right now. Everyday i'm getting stronger and stronger and it's not going to stop. Just like the song I'm listening to right now says, "I refuse to be denied. I'm coming after you."
: D

But anyways, today I went to wal-fart and bought some new pants finally. I'm proud of myself for actually staying committed to losing weight. It's hard, but well worth it in the end. I learned a lot about the guitar today too, stuff I didn't really understand before but now I do. I think it's gonna open up the understanding of theory and everything else musically now.


Overall though I'm happy with my life. Some things might not be that great right now but so what. What I have at this moment in time is where it's at haha.

So

Last night was pretty good. Good word at church and everything worked out nicely. Got to hang out with Terry and Kylie at chilis haha those two are awesome. We will see what they have in store for the Awakening group tonight.

So I've been thinking lately about what i wanna do for a career and i keep coming back to being a corrections officer. I'm not sure yet if it's what i wanna do but i'm going to look into it and pray about it. I'm almost 21 and it's time to start thinking about this stuff cuz i don't wanna be stuck living with my parents for ever haha. Hopefully I can figure something out soon.

The Post

So today the youth went down to valencia for a youth rally. It was pretty fun we talked the whole way there about whatever and just had a good time. The service though man it was awesome. Worship was great and the word especially really hit home with a lot of people i'm sure. I like what Terry said about our generation and how "adults" will look down on us because we are young but actually we are first children and then we are capable.

The thing that really hit home though was on the way back on the bus. Matt just spoke the truth about things we were questioning or wondering about. And with him talking about these things it kinda made me take a second look at my own life and ask myself what are you doing to yourself and not only that but to those around me. Then when me and my brother drove home i had a talk with him about how we need to be examples in our own home as well to our parents because they need to see what God has done in our lives. We all do things that aren't right but that's why we ask for forgiveness and one thing i told my brother is i am your older brother i shouldn't be doing something and setting the wrong example for you. So basically today was a real eye opener and i thank God that this all happened.

And now it is time for bed because i'm pooped and i gotta wake up in the morning. a;lskdl;fakljsdfjl;asjdljfk haha.

It's been a long week...

This week has been full of some unexpected turns. Money issues and everything else kinda sucks but hey that's how things go. But the hardest thing that's happened this week was losing my grandpa..but at least now he's home. These times are difficult but we all go through them. I know the hardest part for me at least is seeing my dad hurt. I've only seen him cry twice in my life...

I was taught about leaving a legacy for people to follow not too long ago and the way we live our lives represents the kind of impression we leave on people when we finally enter into the kingdom. We all get remembered some how and some way and we all leave some soft of blueprint that others can see. My grandpa left a lasting one which is carried on by my family. I love my family with all my heart.

It certainly is tough right now but we will be alright. We just gotta pray and be strong for each other and know that there is something far more greater than anything on this earth waiting for us in heaven..

WOW

Is all i can say about tonight. That was insane.
Tonight at church when bart and i were practicing the songs i knew something was going to be different about the service.
So with that being said i was right during worship God came in and just blew everyone away.
My cousin ryan showed up too but it wasn't just because. He was there because God called him to be there.
I just wanna say how proud i am of him. He fought to get me to start going to church a couple of years ago and it worked and now it's my turn. We all go through things that sometimes causes us to fall off the path and like matt said tonight no matter where you go God will always be right behind you. I had to go through a wilderness and get beaten up and bear scars that i have to wear for the rest of my life, but you know what....I wear them proudly :] and from this point on there is no looking back it's about looking forward to what is going to happen in my daily walk and i'm more excited then anyone could ever know.

Recap on the weekend

the weekend is over. THANK GOD.
i hate valentines day as you can see already.
you females amaze me ha.
anyways i spent valentines gay over at marcus and laurens it was pretty fun actually just chillin and talking about anything and everything haha.
then today i went and saw taken for the second time with ellie, alisha and satan ohh wait i mean vanessa haha. that movie is siiiiick. then we went to dennys....i hate dennys....then silver showed up i miss hanging out with him all the time we used to be best friends.
it's crazy how things change.
and now i think i'm getting sick. THANKS MARCUS. haha.

YAY

i hate valentines day! : D

It's Friday..

And today sucks. I went to the gym this morning and that's about all i've done. Then my stupid xbox messed up so i have to send it to microsoft to be repaired. AWESOME. not.
Hopefully tonight is fun.
Tomorrow is Valentines Gay. After what happened last year i don't want to even think about this day anymore. I just need to find something to do and keep my mind off of things.

poop

valentines day is the worst holiday ever invented. yep.

Thoughts and Feelings

Haven't really written on here in a while but here's an update:
Still going to the gym trying to lose weight. It seems to be working so far.
It's raining outside. I hate the rain!
Valentines day is coming up and it's the worst holiday of the year.
Trying to find a job is hard these days but i have to.
I wonder if she knows? i hope not..
Hopefully this weekend is fun because last weekend sucked.
My dog is snoring behind me..weird
Annnnddd yeaaaah. i can't really think of anything else to say haha. So that is all for now.